We all have to trust in things we cannot see simply due to the fact that we will never be able to see everything. I feel as though most people understand this whether or not it is explicitly stated – it is the only way to cope with living in a world that is full of the unexpected. Some people trust that you end up where you are supposed to by a force of the universe; other people, like me, believe in a God in which we can place our trust despite not being able to see Him physically. Chee, author of “The Querent”, had to take a windy road in order to end up at the same conclusion most of us accept for fear that we will drive ourselves crazy if we don’t. For most people, the thought of trying to determine how every possible event in their life is going to play out is enough to suffocate them.
Chee’s path to this conclusion is marked by his experience with trauma as a teenager. With the death of his dad, Chee’s world was stripped of things he thought to be certainties – things he never imagined being temporary. He lost his father as well as his security. As control was taken out of Chee’s hands, he reached out to grasp it and his hands came back with Tarot cards. It is through the cards that Chee felt the control he had lost with the loss of his father. He used the cards as a way to try and see into the future – to try and feel some sense of power. Chee allowed the Tarot cards to consume him until they became his crutch and fed into his addiction for knowledge of the future.
Chee was finally able to realize that knowing the future only binds you. His focus on the future forced him to neglect the present and ruin several relationships. How can you enjoy life when you aren’t ever present for it? Chee finally learned that you just have to trust in the things you can’t see.
That phrase does seem a little ridiculous, but we actually practice it every day. Take friendship, for example: there is no tangible item labeled “friendship” and you can’t see it. However, we know it exists by the word our friends say, their desire to spend time with us, and the way they show up when it all hits the fan. There are a lot of things we believe in that we can’t see: freedom, loyalty, truth. As humans we have to put our trust in something other than ourselves in order to survive a life littered with uncertainty. Chee now understands that instead of trying to control the uncertainty one has to run with it.
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